Fresh Start

I am starting out slow.

My sister is getting married on May 19th. I am the Maid of Honor and I DON'T want to look like a whale up there beside her.

There are 13 weeks until her wedding. I need to choose I healthy goal and I need to do everything I can to achieve it. I think if I make this goal maybe it will make the other goal seem more achievable.

I still want to be a healthy weight by the time I turn 21, but at the rate I'm going, I'll be doubling my weight instead of taking it off. And that makes me sick.

I just hate cooking and it takes up so much time. But it's time I need to suck it up and do what I need to do to get healthy. I'm ready to change my life hopefully for good this time. I AM READY.

Here we go again

You know you're at your lowest when even your stretch pants are tight.
I weighed this morning, and the scale said 317. I have gained almost 40 pounds in 6 months. How does that happen? How could I do that to myself.

I have no energy to do anything, to see anyone, let alone try to make myself eat healthy again.

I feel like I am past the point of no return. How do I get passed this? How do I make myself happy again? How do I get back into the game?

There is no more self-control, I cannot stop myself from stopping by fast food place, sometimes I eat out three times a day...who does that?

My sweet tooth is so bad now that I go to Wal-Mart and by myself a cake. A CAKE.

THIS IS HORRIBLE.

I need to do something, I am killing myself and I am miserable.

I have been avoiding blogging for days now. I have been eating horrible, but I know that I feel so yucky when I don't eat healthy I don't know why I do it. The last couple of days I have succumbed to my old habits and it's gross! I'm so ready to get on the right track tomorrow and get back on track to losing...and feeling better!

Party=Success

I have some good news and some bad...
First for the good news-My first pampered chef party ever went fabulous! Quite a few people showed up, and ordered a lot of stuff!

So on to the bad news...I didn't eat very well yesterday with my party and my grandma's funeral it just wasn't a very good mixture, buuut I don't think I gained anything which is good news (even though I didn't lose).


Oh well as long as I'm not putting the weight back on I can accept mess up days.

Oh Mannnnn....

Oh my gosh it's been such a long day!
I spent the morning and most of the afternoon cleaning, preparing for my pampered chef party tomorrow!!
And I just got home from my Grandma's visitation, and tomorrow is the funeral.
I weighed this morning and I've lost 2lbs, which is crazy but I'm so happy, definitely gives me extra motivation.

As far as exercise...welll that didn't go so well today either. However I made an attempt to park farther back in the parking lot of wal mart and walked a little more than necessary inside the store as well! So that is at least making an effort.

For dinner I had delicious Subway and I kept it healthy! Yogurt and a kids size turkey on wheat, not extremely healthy but better than McDonalds.

Last night after I made my post was a little more difficult, I got home from my boyfriends place and I was really craving cereal, so bad I was going to have some. But my dad was up, and it was pretty late, so I took it as a sign to stay strong and I resisted!

Well I guess I'll let you know how tomorrow goes! So far I'm pretty satisfied with myself, two days and so far so good!

Day Number One

TODAY WAS DIFFICULT
I keep trying to tell myself that if this was easy half of our population wouldn't be obese...and I wouldn't be writing about how hard it is.

Started my day off applying to a couple clerical positions for when school starts, hopefully something will turn over...but it hasn't yet :(
On the bright side I enjoyed a bowl of Special K with skim milk and fresh kiwi...DELICIOUS!
For lunch I had a grilled cheese sandwich with Sara Lee Wheat Bread (which is so great), a piece of fat free cheese, and I can't beleive it's not butter spray
Later I had a cup of fresh pineapple
And for dinner I had a turkey burger on wheat bread with a half of slice of fat free cheese (only 12 calories!) and a small salad...which was gross. I'm just not a salad person.

It has been so hot outside it's almost unbearable to be in it, 105 degrees!!!! HOT, HOT!!
I feel that I need to get some exercise but I just can't find the will power. I imagine it will come with time, I'm eating right and soon I'm sure the exercise will just come. One day I read about a lady that just danced and jumped around to music for 30 minutes a day until she wanted to actually exerciese, and it helped!!
Maybe I'll try that tomorrow?

I hope everyone had a spectacular day today and I'll be back with you tomorrow!
Wish me luck!

Ready, Set...Lose!!

Hola!!
My name is Hope and I am a 19 year old college student.
This is the start to my weight loss journey...even though I have lost 26 pounds since May, 2011.
I needed a little more motivation and over the past couple of weeks I have read tons and tons of different weight loss blogs and thought HEY....if this can work for them why can't it work for me??


All my life I have been heavy, obese, over-weight, fat, whatever you want to call it...and I hate it. But I've been happy, on the outside. Now I want to be happy on the inside too.

Everyone has dreams...to be rich, famous, married, travel the world, some dreams seem unattainable, but my dream to actually be skinny for once in my life is completely attainable I just have to get it through my stubborn head that I can do this, I can be the best version of me.

This is me ----->
280 Pounds
A weight I will never see again!


So my goal- Half of my weight by my 21st birthday which will be 12/24/2012
I have a little less than a year and a half to lose 140 pounds (not counting the 26 I have already lost) and celebrate my birthday in style!!

So join me on my journey, and maybe you can find some motivation for yourself as well